Heaven.

My friend from Kenya called Julia recently went back to Kenya to start her very last year of school. She wrote to me today and told me that she misses me and that the school is empty without me. Well I can believe that since I'm empty without the school. Then I searched facebook  bit and found a blog by a girl who came to Kenya yesterday and is starting the school I have been going to for the past two years. I have now been spending the past couple of minutes reading her blog. She's been writing about the awkward first conversations, the planning on staying fit all year (trust me, that won't work), the tennis court, the brunch and the amazing pineapple, she wrote about internet being all sucky and the sun being too hot, she wrote about Junction and planet yogurt, the crappy phones and the messy traffic, she wrote about my home. I feel like there's a hole where my chest should be. I feel empty and jealous and people are asking why I'm upset? Well has anyone seen Buffy The Vampire Slayer? Well at the end of season 5 Buffy dies and all her friends and family thinks she's stuck in hell so in the beginning of season 6, Willow is going to try to get her back to life with her witch craft and she actually manages too so when Buffy comes back she pretends to be all happy but the truth is that she isn't happy, not even a bit because she wasn't in hell at all, she had been in heaven and Earth was hell. Imagine how that feels, well that's how I feel right now :( But instead of going from heaven to hell, I went from Kenya to Sweden but at this very moment, I don't see the difference.