I need a change

Have you ever felt like you need a change? I'm not talking about a hairdo, or a new hobby. I am talking about leaving everything and just leave and start over. From scratch. That is exactly what I need. I've been in Sweden pretty much ever since I left Kenya which was TEN MONTHS AGO! I can't honestly, seriously believe it has been that long. It literally feels like it was a week ago I was there. But in my time in Sweden, I've been like zombie. Alone all the time in a house in the middle of nowhere, needing to take an hour bus ride to see my friends. I've been so bored that the point came when I just didn't care anymore. Winter hit in and my personality became as dark and cold as the day. My energy has been at the bottom together with my appetite and somehow I feel like I have just been gaining weight. But that is because weather and different places that effects my weight and actually not so much what I eat (weird, I know). Not long ago, I came back to Zurich with my parents and I am still here now. The weather has been so wonderful and my cheeks have gotten rosy (or burned if you may). I have now realized how depressing and down this winter for me has been and how Sweden really, really, really is from the bottom of my heart NOT the place for me. I belong at an exotic place where the sun is always shining, where I can shower in a water fall, drink from a coconut coming directly from a tree and sing Paolo Nutini on the beach during sundown. It is like the song Angels On The Moon says "I need to sunburn just to know that I am alive" and yes, I need something like that to remind myself that I am alive and I need to live so yes I need a change. Just leave everything behind and start over, and maybe then it will all be good again :)

Picture taken by my mum today when we went for a walk in the fields