I long for the day that I don't have to miss you anymore

Time goes by so fast most of the time that I don't ever have time to just sit down, relax and live in the moment. I just take every day for granted not even feeling my emotions. This day however gave me some good news so I've really been thinking about the future. What my life will be like, who I will befriend and it is exciting. But here I am in my room, alone and now I am suddenly thinking of the past. The friends who I once had. They are still my friends, but people I use to be with every day, all the time. People who have seen me at my absolute best, and absolute worst. The ones I would've taken a bullet for and I just realized that has changed so much this year. We don't have that bond anymore, because they are not around me at all times anymore. I've grown closer to other people this year in Sweden which is good but there are so many that I miss so bad it hurts. It saddens me, and I am scared that in a couple of years I'll walk past these amazing people on the street and I will think "I use to love that stranger"....