My life right this moment is pretty plain, and honestly kind of boring. If I am not working, I am mostly sitting home alone watching TV, studying, blogging, writing. Going to see my friends is expensive since they live a 40 minute bus ride away and even so, they all work or study so there isn't much time. My life right now is lonely and quiet and I spend most of my time missing people and thinking "I wonder what I would do if for example Anna was here right now". I find myself daydreaming about the past when I lived with 60 other people and what a change it is to now only be one. I dream about the future and how university will treat me.
But it isn't all bad though, since I do have something now to look forward too. It was worse 6 months ago when I didn't know what to do with myself. Sweden is the place I've always come back to when I don't have any place to go, but I never considered it home and next time I leave, I have to believe that I will leave for good and that gets me up in the morning. Once a week I have singing lessons which I really enjoy, partly because my teacher is brilliant and so kind hearted, but I also kind off see it as therapy. I pick a song depending on my mood and what I feel, and I sing my heart out. Every now and then I have good days, like Rita's birthday or hopefully the midnight premier of Catching Fire I will be going to next week. My friends are cool and we do talk a lot even though I don't see them as much as I did before the summer ended, and I really cherish moments I get with friends I hardly see at all.
But this life, is just temporary. I have hope and in six months from now I'll write a similar post again and see how much it all has changed.
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