Made coffee for the first time

It is 7am and I've been up for a while now. I don't think I've had a good nights sleep in over a month. The one time I actually happened to fall asleep at a reasonable hour, I woke up at 3am and couldn't go back to sleep. It doesn't matter what I do, or how tired I am, I simply won't fall asleep. Oddly enough I have no problem with taking short naps during the day and I am pretty sick of it. It has actually driven me to the point where I email a hotline for help and all they sent me back was an article about Delayed Sleep Phase Disorder that I had already read so that annoyed me a bit. And it honestly isn't that I don't try, I've tried so hard and it just won't work, and that has nothing to do with laziness, from the little I've read it's caused by heavier things such as stress, nerves, depression, but can also be caused by nightmares, night shifts, too many thoughts and I personally see a whole lot of things that could cause this for me. So I am considering maybe talking to a specialist to get some answers but first I am going to stay up all day now without taking naps to see if that will help me sleep tonight.

I got home from Cajsa's last night around 1am and I took a cup of tea, blogged and went to bed at once. I couldn't sleep and an hour later I fell half asleep, around 3.30 I woke up again and was just laying in bed, not being able to sleep so I wrote a post in my blog, switched off my computer and tried going back to sleep but I was literally just laying in bed with my eyes closed, but fully awake. Today I am going to town to meet Rita so I was scared that I would be so dead during the day if I didn't sleep but I couldn't help it so when the clock hit 6am, I'd had enough and climbed out of bed. I googled ways to stop being tired and keep the day energetic and of course coffee was the most obvious answer. Just the smell of coffee makes me sick but I decided to give it shot. I looked for coffee which I eventually found it. After several failed attempts I looked up videos on youtube how to make coffee which I eventually found out how to do. I made coffee, pour the smelly brown liquid into a cup and almost puked of the taste, I ran for the sugar and poured in a bunch, took another sip, still amazingly disgusting but better. Opened the fridge and realized I was out of milk so I mixed yogurt and water together so it became like milk, poured in the coffee and it was actually sort of tolerable. I did however take long breaks between each sip, and ate a bowl of yogurt with raspberries with it to keep myself from puking. Why anyone would ever choose to drink this stuff is beyond me. I'm however not tired anymore, more relaxed sitting here on my coach listening to country music. In a bit I am going to go to the store to buy an apple because I Linnea told me that helps too. 

It is times like these that I miss my good old buddy Ragnar, the man who never sleeps (except for when he's in class). Whenever I couldn't sleep back when we lived like 50 meters apart, I could just text "movie?" or "you awake? wanna hang?" to him at any hour, and two minutes later he would be in my room. Oh, how I wish I could text him now to come over with a good movie option or a crazy idea that would make me laugh for hours.