Sleepover Friday

Rita came over yesterday. Well my dad and I picked her up in Höllviken and we went to Toppen to buy some food and a birthday present for Jesper. When we got back, Rita and I cooked for us, my dad and my brother, Chicken pesto with pasta YUM! I was so full after that though so we decided to go for a long walk down to the beach, we sat there and had a very political discussion ha ha. When we got back, we ate chips, watched the horror movie Octulus and then the movie Vampire Academy. I really liked them both. Rita slept over and today we have been watching Freaks and Geeks all day. I am not trying to find an outfit for tonight because it is Party Saturday :D

Getting shit off my chest

I don't like putting feelings out there, especially not on my blog, but where else am I going to turn to? I think it is important at this day and age to share feelings even if it is hard. That is what my problem is, I find it so hard talking because then others would know and others are not allowed to know. Am I the only one who feels that way?
On a hangover day like this however I get slow and tired, and since I don't have the energy to physically do anything, I think instead. Today that is what I have done, I've been alone with my thoughts, my scary, unwelcome thoughts.
I've thought about how I've almost made it a year here, away from the life I grew to love. I've been alone in a house in the middle of nowhere, an hour away from civilization and friends. With not a lot of money and not many people around to laugh with. I don't think people realize how lonely it gets until one is rocking the same boat and the most amazing thing is, I haven't snapped yet. I've thought about how I feel like the only one out there who doesn't want to grow up, because the older I get the more I realize. I realize how this world is filled with hatred such as homophobes and racism and the older I get the more I learn about it and it saddens me. Like the EU elections, I thought we all had learnt something from WWII, 9/11, Jonestown etc but no, we haven't and that scares me. I've thought of how even my near future is completely unwritten, I have no idea where I will be, what I'll do or how. It is all a mistery and the curiousity is driving me crazy.
I'll stop here, I don't want to write more because there still has to be a limit of what I don't share with me on the blog but now I've gotten some of it out, which is important and I have to remember that. But the most important thing to always keep in mind is that no matter what, it will be OK, so remember that. It is all going to be Ok. Always!

Live it up, drink it down, party hard

Yesterday it was Rita's and BT's summer party!! BT lives in a mansion so it was at his house, everyone fits in that house. The weather sucked so we actually stayed inside but the party was amazing! There were a lot of people and loud music. It was also a BBQ party where everyone brought there own food so it was a lot of goodies there :) I danced around, Jesper and I switched clothes with each other haha. By 4am we were just a couple of people left and we were all laying in a bed, talking and joking. A lot of laughter. Love times like that. We slept over and then my parents picked me up. I was so hungry when I got home but now I am just hungover and tired. But it was a fun night even though my voice is completely gone now!

Dinner

Now when my parents have been here, the dinners have been fancier than usual. Fish, risotto, nice salads. Nothing to complain about. I've been doing my best to take photos at the meals for the blog to give out some ideas to you readers :)

-BBQ, ratatouille, potatoes

-Garlic butter marinated crayfish

-Char with beets risotto

-BBQ chicken with fried beets, asparagus and potatoes

-Artichokes and butter 

You don't have to like me, I'm not a Facebook status

Hello bloggggggg!! :)

Here I am sitting in front of the TV, bored and tired. I know however that if I go to bed now, all the tiredness will disapear. Stupid brain tricking me like that. I am thinking maybe a good book and a bath sounds just about right. Today has been a good day. Got out of the house for once haha. My parents and I first took ourselves to Märta's Cafe for lunch. Tuna sandwich... mmm! We then drove to Malmö and looked at different furniture stores. Ikea among others. We only bought some small things though but since I am most likely getting my own apartment next year, I enjoy looking at different designs and even smalls things like plates and candles etc.
When that was all done, we drove to my grandpa and spent some time with him. He was really happy and awake today, haven't seen him like that in a long time so that felt good. I got some more words out of him today :) Right when we left, my grandma and uncle showed up so I got to see them too but we were in a hurry because my singing lesson was about to start. We made it in time though, we sang Torn and it was a lot of fun. Mum and dad picked me up later and we went for some ice cream. Yum! We later drove back home. I spent some time reading blogs and then we ate some dinner. Now we are in front of the TV, just like I already explained.

How has your Tuesday been?

Speak out

Good morning lovely readers.

How are you guys doing? I just woke up so I am still pretty slow. Don't have much planned for today and it seems kind off windy which sucks :( It has been such amazing weather lately so hopefully it will be coming back soon :) I need summer weather tomorrow because I will be busy, busy, busy all day. I am even going to a summer party and Rita and BT's so fingers crossed for nice weather :)

I saw a video this morning I would like to share. I am sorry for all the Swedish but maybe you non Swedish speakers and just listen to the melody...? Haha. It is however a video of a girl who sings about everything I wrote yesterday and she says everything so well. Good to know that I am not the only one who feels this way.

So check it out :)

Unbelievable

I cannot believe the things I read this morning about yesterdays EU elections. I am honestly shocked. Politics is usually not something I interest myself in but I still want the world to be a fair and safe place for all good souls. Unfortunately, after what I read, we have a long way to go before this world becomes a better place.

16 disgusting opinions Europe voted for

1.  Ebola (a sickness) can solve immigration problems within three months
2. Women shouldn't have the right to vote
3. Register all Jews- They are a national security risk
4. These sexual abuses (homosexuality) are not normal and never will be normal 
5. Not wanting to live next to a Romanian is understandable 
6. All credit to the friends whose ultimate, ultimate political act was an attempt to awaken the people of France
7. Reading aloud of the "Protocols of Zion" in Parliament
8. Most people about the age of 70 has a problem with homosexuality
9. Rape is an expression for Islamic culture
10. Which Auschwitz? Were you there?
11. The Holocaust was just a detail in the Second World War
12. Send homosexuals and Somalis to Åland
13. "You will die here" Hungary against Romania
14. Same sex relationships causes flooding
15. Muslims are our biggest threat since the Second World War
16. Stop Muslims immigration 

These sixteen points, are actually points that people believe in, things that people said and people want. It is 2014! How is this still a problem?! It hurts me that this is still an issue. This morning I liked a picture on Facebook of two girls kissing. I then read the comments and one woman had written that it was disgusting and wrong and how sad it is that the entire world doesn't follow what is written in the Bible. I mean ARE PEOPLE COMPLETELY INSANE?! I am shaking of anger just thinking about it. Who the hell is she to tell everyone to believe in God, in the bible? Doesn't religion exist because we should all have our own believes? What proof does anyone have of what is right and wrong? God it pisses me off! What is this? No homosexuals, no Muslims, no immigrants, no Jews, what happened to WE ARE ALL HUMAN? Does humanity suddenly mean nothing anymore?! "Sweden is a great and equal country" well let me be critical here and say that I have lived in a lot of countries and I speak English 99% of the time and Sweden is the only country where people give me ugly looks because of it and comment negatively about it. "Other countries need to develop more to be better" well as far as I am concerned, if Sweden and other "equal" countries continue like this, these will be the countries who need to "delevop to be better" in the future. I have lots of muslim friends, I have gay friends, Jewish friends etc and they are all amazing people. WE ARE HUMAN! Fuck whoever thinks otherwise because that is brutality! 

If you feel like I do, which I hope you do, please, you have a voice, don't be afraid to use it. Peace, Love and Understanding.

Sand, water, and sunshine

So it is Monday again, the worst day of the week usually but today hasn't been that bad. The sun has shined and my tan keeps getting darker by the day. Love it. So today my mum and I biked down to the beach. We figured it was more fun being there than at home. The first thing I did was run into the water and splash around. I swear to God, I should be a mermaid, I love the water more than land. When I started to get a bit frozen however, I went to sunbathe. Started reading a new book, Three Weeks With My Brother by Nicolas Sparks. We just got back home now and my shoulders are brown like chocolate and tan lines are building up nicely :)

10. Never have I ever (appropriate questions)

Never Have I Ever had a boob job
YES NO

Never Have I Ever kissed a girl
YES NO

Never Have I Ever been drunk
YES NO

Never Have I Ever been best friends with a boy
YES NO

Never Have I Ever gotten your drivers licence
YES NO

Never Have I Ever been married
YES NO

Never Have I Ever been to Disney Land
YES NO

Buffy the Vampire Slayer

...Did anyone watch it back in the days? Or has ever seen it? Well I have and it is one of the most loved TV shows. I can say that it is one of the shows I love the most out of the very many shows I've seen. It is right up there next to Friends, 90210 and some others.

When I find that love for a show, I don't just watch it one time and never again. I watch it over and over and over and it never gets old. This past week, I've watched the 6th season of Buffy. It is one of my favorite seasons because it is when Spike and Buffy get together, the emotions get most intense and the episodes are the craziest. Last night I finished season 6 for the millionth time and every time the ending surprises me. Not because I don't know what will happen, but the feelings and the emotions. That is why it is so good this show, because even though it is about a girl who fights vampires and demons, it couldn't be more realistic. The way they feel and act, it is almost as if I can feel their emotions. The last episode of season 6 is one of those episodes that just blows one away. Basically what happens is that Willow (one of the main characters) gets her girlfriend, Tara, back after Tara realized that Willow has given up magic after getting addicted. They spend an entire day together in bed meanwhile Buffy and Xander (the other two main characters) are having a deep and emotional conversation in the garden when Warren (the enemy) comes with a gun to shoot Buffy but he misses and shoots through the window where Willow and Tara are. He however shoots Tara through the heart and kills her instantly. Willow breaks down and basically what happens is that every evil that exists within witchcraft, gets attached to her pain and Willow turns "evil". Willow goes after Warren and his gang but only manages to kill one of them since Buffy and the rest of her gang our out trying to stop their best friend from ruining her life. Willows evilness takes away all her sympathy and love so she had no problem with hurting them, hurting them so bad in fact that she even tried killing Dawn (Buffy's younger sister). When Willow realizes that she will never find Warrens gang, she decided to destroy the world using just a statue and her power. Buffy and Dawn get trapped, Giles (The father figure of Buffy) collapse and is near his death, Anya (an ex demon who is now apart of Buffy's gang) is too afraid to leave his side. The only one who is free is Xander, the only human with no power whatsoever and Willows eldest friend. He gets to Willow in time while she is already trying to ruin the world. Somehow Xander manages to say things to her that makes Willows heart shine a little more. She throws magic at Xander so he falls over again and again, but he doesn't stop, he keeps getting up, taking a step closer to her and tells her he loves her. Eventually Willows good heart comes through enough and she no longer has the strength to bring Xander down with her power. When he is close enough to her, she starts hitting him but even that doesn't stop him from putting his arms around her and Willows power disapears completely and she breaks down in his arms.
That scene is so powerful and amazing that I get chills from just thinking about it. It proves pain, loss and true friendship. This is only one of many amazing scenes in this show. There are lots of times when I get the chills in Buffy the Vampire Slayer. When Buffy has to kill Angel (the love of her life), when Buffy finds her mother dead in their house, when Spike (the "evil" vampire who is in love with Buffy and she has forbidden feelings for him too) tries to hurt Buffy in the bathroom, or when a demon turns the world into a musical and Buffy admits that she was in heaven not in hell. This all seems sad and depressing, but it is powerful and the show actually has a lot of humour too. I love it and I just love it more and more every time I watch it. So I recommend everyone out there, watch it! It is beautiful and amazing.

Xander saves Willow and the world

Spikes sees Buffy for the first time after she comes back to life

Buffy has to kill Angel in order to save the world...again

Up to you!

So my number ten was to answer some Never Have I Ever but only appropriate questions. I however don't want to ask myself and I can't find any good ones, so I thought ya'll can ask me some. Just write in the comments below anything, but it has to be a Never Have I Ever. However if I feel like it is too much, I won't answer so please be respectful and kind :)

I got a body full of liquor With a cocaine kicker And I'm feeling like I'm thirty feet tall

Ebba and I went our seperate ways before dinner yesterday, but it wasn't the end of our day there no, no. My mum and I had a very nice dinner together, garlic butter marinated cray fish. Yum! We then had raspberry sorbet for desert. I got ready and then went back to Ebbas place. Her dad and his girlfriend was there and they offered us some wine and some other drinks. It was fun. Ebba and I later went to a bar close by called Krog 2010 and ordered a bottle of wine. Really good wine actually. We stayed there for an hour or two and then we decided to walk home. I put on Avicii and we were dancing on the street. When we came to the roundabout close to my house, we went to sit in the middle. We put on Swedish kid songs and we sang our lungs out. It was so fun! Eventually we both got tired and went home but it was a lot of fun! A tad hungover today but life is still good :)

Strawberries and champagne

Last night I got a message from my friend Ebba. She asked me to hang out today since she will be dog sitting for her grandmother who lives like two minutes away from me. Of course I wanted to hang out with her today, I haven't seen her in ages and we always have a lot of fun together. This morning when I got up, I ate breakfast, got ready and went to meet her instantly. We went to buy strawberries before going to her place. Her grandmother had left her some champagne so we chopped some strawberries up, put the pieces in two glasses and filled the glasses with champagne. We took a bag of nuts and the rest of the strawberries out. The glasses of champagne just kept getting filled and filled and before we knew it, the entire bottle was empty but we had some interesting conversations while drinking it and eating about life, death, love, friendship etc. She is the type of person who is really open and easy to talk to. Like really have an interesting conversation with and that is probably why we are such good friends even though we see each other less than wanted but it is hard making it work often living such two different lives. So this has been a good start to this weekend :)

The beautiful dog Leah

Ebba and I goofing around haha

Champagne with strawberries

Ebba and our little picnic 

Biaggio

During Easter when I was in Zurich visiting my parents, my brother showed us the movie Kings of Summer. It was very uniq, not like any other but but it was so funny! There was this one character Biaggio who I just couldn't stop laughing at. He was HILARIOUS. It was the same actor who plays Rico in Hannah Montana which just made it that much better. I however just came across a Tumblr with all his quotes and I can't stop laughing. Watch the movie if you are in the mood for a good laugh because it is hilarious!

Ratatouille

Once again, the weather has been awesome. Today it has been 29 degrees. Amazing, right? Ice cream on a day like this was a must. I even swam in the ocean today and I've been walking around in my new bathing suit ever since. My mum and I decided to get the BBQ going and have dinner on our terrasse. While she fixed the meat and the potatoes, I decided to make ratatouille to go with. A French vegetable dish. Delicious! It was my first time making it and it couldn't have gone better. Yummy! is all I have to say about it. I recommend ya'll making some at home :)

The ingredients

First cook peppers and a large onion in oil in a saute. Cover in herbs de provence, salt and pepper. When the peppers are soft, add the cut tomatoes and let it stimmer for some time

Fry the zuccini in olive oil and cover it with some more herbs, then do the same with the aubergine

When the vegetables are soft, mix zuccini and aubergines in the tomatoes/pepper thing and pour some salt and pepper on top of it. Let it stimmer for about ten minutes before mixing it with some basil

and wallah, there you have it! Dinner is served once the meat and the potatoes are done too :) 

Answers

Anonymous said...
so u r saying it is ok to sleep around and just not care? that could hurt a lot of peole u know, just sayin
Well it is all about respect really. For yourself and others. If you are not hurting anyone then it really isn't anyones business to get involved just to make that person "feel bad". If others feelings are involved then that is a different story and obviously not ok but that doesn't mean that he/she has to be a slut...? There is a bigger problem there than name calling.

Anonymous said...
you are not wearing any powder or foundation now? how do u keep ur skin so perfect?
No I am not. Haha I don't do much actually. I moisurize it maybe twice a week and use a face mask every second week maybe but that is more for comfort. I think I am just lucky. I grew up in a hot climate and sun is good for the skin so that could have something to do with it too.

 spice said...
copenhagen is in denmark isnt it and u live in sweden. 2 different countries but u can still just go there just like that for a day? what is in copenhagen that u dont have and how long does it take for u to get there?
Yes it is in Denmark and I live in Sweden but I live right by the border so it really is just to take the train over and I am there. I prefer Copenhagen actually. It is cheaper, more international and people are more social. There are always things going on there and the clubs are amazing. It is simply just a lovely place and I wish I was there even more than I already am actually :)

 

Taking selfies on my long walk in the sun while my mum was working at home hehe :) 

9. The make up I use

My all natural face haha

I start with powdering my face but I only do that when I feel pale, or acne-ish or just look extra tired. Lately I have been using this one from H&M

I then fix my eyes and I start by using this pencil eye liner. I always wear it! I used to have a really good one imported from India but I can only buy it in Kenya so now I am using this from Maybelline

I then use eye shadow. I usually like to go a bit dark but now when the summer is here I am going lighter. On special occasions I like to experiment with colours though. I have lots of different eye shadows, these are the two I use the most

Gorgeous! haha. When my eyes are coloured up, I put on mascara on my lower and upper eye shadows. I don't have a specific one I buy every time but I don't like mascaras with thin brushes. Mega Volume Manga is a really good one

When I still think I can do even more to my face, I use blush but that is only on special occasions. This is one of the blushes I use, I have lighter colours too. This one is from H&M

Now the best part, LIPSTICK! I love lipstick. These are my fab colours. I like going pretty dark or crazy bright on the lips unless I am wearing an outfit and eye shadow that doesn't go with the stand out colours, then I use the second one from the right, a natural colour

Some extras. I only use these products when I feel like it is necessary. Some glitter, dip liner and concealer 

This is me today. I wasn't planning on wearing make up today but what don't I do for the blog? Hehe. I only did my eyes today. A natural look but with a darker shade, eye liner and mascara